My Brother George

by Dr. David Sanders

I wash my hands both night and day

To keep the spread of COVID at bay

For 20 seconds I lather, rinse and clean

This has now become my new routine.


With the fear of corona contagion, we have become accustomed to washing our hands. But there is another unseen pathogen that is harder to wash away or wash our hands from. Shakespeare was not the first to create the image for us with Lady Macbeth washing her hands to no avail, for she cannot remove that damn spot!


The bible records an unusual practice in eight verses in Deuteronomy regarding the finding of a corpse in a remote location and the cause of death is homicide. The first directive is to determine which city is the closest to the murder victim, with the assumption that proximity is a sign of culpability. But why is anyone culpable? The rabbis elaborate that had someone offered the person refuge in their city they wouldn’t have been vulnerable to attack. Another assumption. Murder occurs because society has not taken the proper measures to ensure care and concern for all those who dwell or pass by.


What then ensues is remarkable. Once it has been determined which is the closest city, the elders of that city must gather and perform a ritual washing of their hands and pronouncing, “Our hands did not shed this blood, nor did our eyes see it done.”


The Talmud asks: Would we think that the elders of the city are murderers? Why is it necessary for them to publicize that they did not kill him? Rather, they must declare: “It is not so that this victim came to our city and we dismissed him without food or we did not provide him with an escort.”


What did I feel watching the murder of George Floyd? Culpability and shame. I cannot wash my hands from him and proclaim: “My hands did not shed this blood, nor did my eyes see it done.” Have I done enough to be of assistance and to care for the plight of all my brothers and sisters?


“They have eyes but do not see, they have ears but do not hear, they have voices but do not shout, they have hands but do not reach out.” Have I turned a deaf ear and a blind eye, not raised my voice loud enough and not offered a helping hand so that I am clean and clear from culpability.


As I wash my hands now day and night

I see my counterfeit concern in a new light

I will rail and protest and join in the fight

Stand up for justice and proper oversight

To ensure that no person is not treated right.

The issues we face as a nation are complex but that does not mean that I can shirk my responsibility to ensure, as much as I can, that all people are treated equally. Which one of us is not the “closest city” to the murdered victim?


Peggy Brody · June 5, 2020 at 4:26 pm

Wonderful. Thank you.

Karen · June 5, 2020 at 4:38 pm

David, as always your articles are amazing, thought provoking and I love you!!

Jane E Rosenbaum · June 5, 2020 at 4:54 pm

Thank you David. We must all take responsibility to ensure there is change.

Bill Horger · June 5, 2020 at 6:13 pm

I found your sentence most profound (paraphrasing): even though I did not do it, nor did I see it, what is my part in it? I am, as a taxpayer, supporting a system that is unfair and/or unjust. Therefore, I am also must shoulder part of the blame. And there are things I can do to make it right. Through the ballot box, through protest, through lobbying my local and state officials. But, most importantly, when I see injustice, I must call it out, and stand in truth.

Sue Allon · June 6, 2020 at 7:49 am

David, thank you for this message, and for the suggestion of a practical reminder, not just to guide our thoughts to this incredibly important issue, but also to use small tasks like hand-washing as an opportunity to reset our thoughts and intentions throughout the day.

Steven Garner · June 6, 2020 at 10:43 am

Brilliant d’rash! You moved our hearts and connected us deeply and so meaningfully with our distant roots! We are keeping this one and sharing with others. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Judy Maselli · June 6, 2020 at 11:11 am

Always profound and thought-provoking. Thank you, David.

Trudi Linas · June 6, 2020 at 12:35 pm

Thank you for your powerful words connecting our tradition to the challenges facing our nation today. As I read them , I remembered that the American Jewish community was one if the earliest allies in the young Civil Rights movement , in the 60s. Some may remember Rabbi Abraham Joshua Heshel marching with Dr Martin Luther King in an early protest. 60 years later, we still have work to do in this fight for social justice!

Wendy Davis · June 6, 2020 at 1:29 pm

Thanks for the beautiful expression of what we are feeling.

Robyn Loup · June 6, 2020 at 6:37 pm

Thank you for your Post David. An awakening is happening… “Black Lives Matter.”

Anita Khaldy Kehmeier · June 15, 2020 at 5:48 pm


JUN 15, 2020
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. —Fannie Lou Hamer

Those words have never felt more appropriate for me as they do right now. This is a hard message to write and may be an even harder message to read but please, stick with me to the end. It isn’t just anger, even though anger is there; it isn’t just mistrust, though that is there too. There is also faith, hope, and love.

But before we get there, some radical candor:

I am a bridge builder. I always have been. In every school, professional environment, and often in social situations, I have been the one to connect people of varying backgrounds because I have been so acutely aware of my own immigrant background. Born in Jamaica and growing up in Canada, it was a beautiful blend of multicultural experiences and deep friendships. I was/am the black friend they would send to talk to white people. My black friends tease me about my ability to navigate predominantly white environments. I have been able to do that both because of my upbringing that roots me in a strong, black, Jamaican heritage and pride, and because I am often one of very few black people in my surroundings. Because of this, I have learned to listen, to try to find the common ground, and to push with candor and an open heart.

But now the bridge builders are tired and the bridge builders are angry.

And let me be clear: I am not tired or angry because I am black — that is a beautiful, bountiful blessing. I am tired and angry because of oppression, racism, and fair-weather liberalism. Being black in America is to live with what feels like daily racial jabs — to get up and know that even in spite of your other privileges, it is not a question of whether you will face racism but rather how and to what degree.

Why would I not welcome all of this new desire to learn, to grow, to lean fully into allyship? Because I don’t fully believe it. People are talking about this being a new moment for society, that people are really starting to listen. But didn’t we say that after Trayvon Martin? Mike Brown? Tamir Rice? Sandra Bland? Alton Sterling? Philando Castile? This moment, for me, feels like: Wait, verify, and then trust.

I am tired of white colleagues who have ignored the reports of microagressions and outright racism but are now posting black boxes on social media or reaching out to me with an “I love you.” They may mean well, but it often feels so little and too late.

READ: How White Liberals Perpetuate Relational Violence
Where were they when the president of the organization talked about the need to hire a person of color but he needed to hire a qualified person?

Where were they when the leader of the organization asked a young black female employee whose pregnancy we were celebrating if she was married?

Where were they when my manager, after reading my strategic plan for my department, asked me, “Who helped you with that?” Or when I cried during a meeting because it was the week Alton Sterling was killed and she suggested I was too emotional?

Where were they when I had my lighter-skinned baby to my breast and two ladies approached me and asked me for a card for my wet nursing services?

Where were they when my oldest son, who had not yet turned 7, was called aggressive and punished by his white chess teacher for protecting himself against a bully?

Where were they when that same son was 5 and at pick up time from golf camp, the coach summoned another black boy, and when I pointed out that that wasn’t my son, literally said to me in front of my child, that “With the color thing it is hard to keep track”?

I told my leaders in my jobs. I told my colleagues. I told administrators. I told teachers. I told my friends. I am tired of talking. I am tired of having to temper my words so that things land well or help someone along. I am tired of white fragility and so tired of the tears.

But my faith allows me to lay my burdens down, (Matthew 11:28-30). “When I am weary and burdened, I know where I can get rest.”

But my faith empowers me, (Isaiah 40:31). “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

But my faith means I have somewhere to put my stress, (Philippians 4:6-7). “Do not be anxious about anything but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Because of my faith I am still here. But in this time of upheaval and unrest, I am not here to call my white friends when they need comfort: I have to be a wife, mother, colleague, manager, home CEO, and friend. I have to do all of those things while handling my own trauma and also supporting my black husband and children. I am not here to talk with parents who are teaching their children not to see color: I cannot trust them to raise children who will stand by my boys when they are profiled, discriminated against, or unlawfully detained by cops. I am not here to applaud symbolic gestures: I don’t have patience for anyone who protests, puts up Facebook posts, buys the trending anti-racism books, or makes signs but then does nothing to sustain this movement.

I am still here to build bridges. I am still committed to encourage an authentic desire to learn, to push, and dismantle.

My faith gives me the strength to love, honor, forgive, and to go deeper into my friendships. So even though I am weary, angry, afraid for the beautiful black men in my life, and did I mention tired, I will still try to be a bridge, because I still believe that it takes a village. But dear white people, don’t look for those bridges if all you do is treat this time like a moment and not an ongoing movement and go back to business as usual.

Sharee McKenzie Taylor
Sheree McKenzie Taylor is a black woman, lawyer, mother, and wife of Adam R. Taylor, executive director of Sojourners.

Anita Khaldy Kehmeier · April 27, 2021 at 3:08 pm

569 seconds: 9 min and 29 seconds,
Knee on neck,
A breath every 21 seconds.

27 times,George Floyd pleaded,
“I can’t breathe !’, struggling moans,
569: Guardian angels assured George Floyd,
That they understood his pain,

A fatal arrest to terrify others,
Daniella Frazer,17 yrs old,
Cel phone’s going to capture and PERGE,
Illusions, strong holds, denial,
This unintractable oozing ,smelling poison.

569 seconds: angle’s ask George…to make drastic far reaching “change”,
This special angel NUMBER invites,
us to connect,
with the cosmos in some way,
Floyd lets go of what is known,
He has evolved into another level,
His spirit says,” Let FREEDOM rage!”

We in Denver,do change the dial,
A good rebound blessed with deliberate intent,
To the streets filled with:
purpose, joy, love,peace,clarity…
We mustered up our courage,
and spoke up,” No justice, No peace!”
Bullhorn rendering,”BLM!”

Rounds of protests,
Bearing the burden of each other…
Evolution, transformation and transition:
Now make that global shift in vision,
A pilgrimage going straight,
into the heart of the matter,
‘White officer killing black man!”
Apartheid gentrification centuries old…
The social norm of less than housing,
Policing wealth disparities,
Food deserts, Ill health care,
unemployment,Jim Crow police brutality…
All screaming ghosts…in this Chauvin’s violent intersectionality…

569 seconds: Forgiveness is the symbol of angel 569,
in-order to progress and heal,
it is necessary to forgive,
We kneel at the Capitol steps in Denver,
Blood red roses blushing in my arms,
the scent of hope fills the air,
Time to ramp up the spiritual valve,
in this moment, my life will change for ever…
This huge ingathering – so larger than life,
as we process collective trauma,
renegade, hodge podge, rag tag, collage of saints, growing confident FORCE.

569 seconds: Near death…George Floyd is gasping…by now…on the right path…
Seeking spiritual fulfillment,
guidance from above,
spiritual path unfolding,

You see Floyd’s mural on the wall,
a sacrifice to ring out the old,
ring in the NEW,
his life story, manuscript…
etched on our non violent movement…

We are on slim borrowed time…
No respect shown for a precious human life,
Our deep anxious communal ANGST,
we are not going to be enslaved by our putrid past.

569 seconds: George continues determinedly,
to fulfill his soul’s mission,
and divine purpose in life,
he breaks the rules,
opens doors,
faces every thing that stops him.

13 cel phone cameras, recording a MURDER,
glorified streaming,
and a crowd of witnesses demand Chauvin…
12 jurors empathize,
Justice has been served,
The lights go out,
George needs to go at it alone,
Silence happened,
Broken heart now a-beat,
emerges triumphant…
We are all on this spiritual path,
there is MORE to this movement than meets the eye,
We have all struck it out,
We are each other’s advocate…

569 seconds: Keep praying,
Keep up those positive affirmations,
Listen to your intuition,
What are you waiting for? Let’s GO…

Trump Tweets,” A disgrace to our country!”
Bonfire statue burned in D.C.,
In Denver, Chauvin’s effigy a fiery blaze,
My placard shouts,” No justice,No peace…No racist police !”
The police shoot canisters at us,
the kneeling non combative masses a-praying,
Now,” I can’t breathe !!!, I gasp…dead cold,
the burning tears flow,
the milk of human kindness pours,
from a gallon of daily,
splashing relief on my tearful burning face,

Incriminating corruption,
a FASCIST police force,
Public enemy…for shooting at protestors,
Our resistance is for accountability
for “use of force policies”
de escalation tactics,
De lance this festering boil,
This disease of racism and bigotry,
The root of all bias and bias policing,
TO engage in truthful engagement with COMMUNITY.

569 seconds: “It’s so hard to say good bye !!!”,says Floyd,
I am recovering, shaking, shivering…
Hands grasping my steering wheel…
“Let me catch my BREATH!!!” for a sec…
You and I are the ones,
who will hold this world up…
Scholars of anti war protests…
We are in maximum status,
Under lock down,
by a police system that is…
NOT the envy of the world

Lady Liberty holds a weary, heavy bacon,
We could stand to loose it ALL…
No false promises coming from this tired, hurting body and mind…

569 seconds: I meditate on George Floyd’s Denver mural…
I place my blood red roses…
against his effigy…
This moment in time,
will be burned for life…
“ Adieu Mon Ami”,
“Indeed!!!, It’s hard to say GOOD BYE!!!”…Love and blessing…By Anita Khaldy

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